It was during my stay at NABI that the Marian's played an old vhs recording of Native American prophesy by Lee Brown. It also shows many photos of Native Americans throughout the Americas -- photos that leave an imprint on your heart as a result of knowing their struggle, their hardships, their oppression, and all that was sacrificed and lost. The video ended with Buffy Sainte-Marie's song -- i just sat there and cried. Her chanting penetrated my heart in a way i had never experienced. The drums pounded in my heart and i never wanted the song to end. It felt like my soul was lifted up into the realms above and beyond, and i wanted to stay in that state of being forever. Her cry infused me with inspiration to be tireless in my efforts to create justice in my daily relationships with others. This song was like a homecoming to my heart which grew up in this life very attuned to the downtrodden, the teased, the oppressed, the marginalized -- it fulfilled my inmost desire to expend all my life energy on readjusting antiquated, old-world paradigms for how people are valued.
**Right before leaving for NABI, on December 28, 1991, i met Dashiel. He was the soul i was praying for that year. God brought our souls together in a mysterious, magical way. I believe our souls were destined to meet, though i realize it was necessary for me to turn to God in prayer to be able to recognize his soul. I had never experienced love until i met him. I was very attracted to the light around him (i can still see it in my mind's eye across the dance floor where we met). I was very focused on arising to be of service when i met him and didn't immediately recognize that this was going to be my soul's beloved throughout all the worlds of God. As the story goes, i had to return home after 3 months anyway to attend my dad's 50th birthday celebration. It was during this visit that i fell in love with Dashiel and we were inseparable from that moment on. I returned to NABI though it was now a challege to arise to serve knowing that Dashiel was the one for whom i had been praying to God. Dashiel was able to visit NABI 2 times -- offering his heart, time and skills to a people who he loved as well and who touched his heart forever. We both love this song by Buffy Sainte-Marie. :)