|always trying to 'be strong' as in 'b' for 'bob' strong|
within a week's time, we saw him go from this new sense of normal to one of fatigue, tiredness, breathing difficulties and excruciating pain when urinating. it was just before the Christmas and New Year holiday season. he started sleeping during the day and had no energy for watching us play soccer outside (in the very cold weather!). he thought he might have an infection but it was not an easy time to make a doctor appointment; many of the specialists were on holiday and he didn't want to go to the hospital where they do not know him or his medical history..
|chatting with the secretaries at the cancer center|
|dad looking worn out..but enjoying a smoothie made with fresh blueberries & strawberries made by dashiel|
the last week of our visit, when he went for the petscan early in the week, he could no longer drive. at the University of PA hospital, where they all know him, he had to return each day for one reason or another -- sometimes just because of the inefficiency of the system -- and we barely saw him. on the saturday that we had to say goodbye he was still light-hearted, positive, prayerful and hopeful. with tears in our eyes we all huddled together outside of departures at the airport listening to dad offer a prayer of praise to God, beseeching His guidance for all of us.
a week later he was admitted into the hospital where he's been for a week now. he's had a biopsy on his bladder where a mass was found, and he was given a spinal tap to determine if there are any lymphomic cancer cells lingering within the bones. i'm waiting to see what the results of these tests are while he lies in the hospital each day with immeasurable pain until treatment can be provided.
|dad's wife, Marti, always being strong and supportive as the caregiver for dad|