it entered my heart finally that my soul just isn't at peace. it shouldn't matter what is happening around me. happiness and contentment are never based on outer circumstances. they are qualities of the soul. a peaceful soul is acquiescent, radiantly acquiescent. a peaceful soul is calm, full of patience, and able to put faith into practice by trusting that everything is God's Will..and God's Will always benefits our souls.
i can feel this internal struggle happening, making me feel discontent when dwelling on what it is that i want to change. what is essential is that i surrender. i must stop trying to resist God's Will -- i.e., all of the situations and circumstances of life here in Ghana. i must stop struggling against what i can't change:
"Whosoever is occupied with himself is wandering in the desert of heedlessness and regret. The 'Master Key' to self-mastery is self- forgetting. The road to the palace of life is through the path of renunciation."(Lights of Guidance, p. 114)